http://amadeusss.multiply.com/ Fri, 5 Sep 2008 16:58:03 -0000 Tue, 15 Jul 2008 22:00:00 -0000 http://images.amadeusss.multiply.com/logo http://amadeusss.multiply.com 100 100 <br><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/hiccoughs/2671880259/"><img src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3059/2671880259_c21a5c1ed1.jpg?v=0" border="0" height="500" width="375"></a><br><br>living, breathing, joy, broken, consistent, inconsistent. i am contradiction and amalgamation of everything. if could tell you what <i>open arms</i> mean to me in a sentence i would. <i>it's my birthday tomorrow, no one here could know. i was born this thursday, 22 years ago.<br><br></i><hr size="1"><a href="http://amadeusss.multiply.com/music/item/40">song for the moment</a><br><ol style="list-style-type: lower-roman;"><li>"let that be enough"<br>— switchfoot</li><li>"who i am hates who i've been" (acoustic)<br>— relient k</li><li>"your heart is an empty room"<br>— death cab for cutie</li><li>"love, where is your fire?"<br>— brooke fraser</li><li>"fool's wisdom"<br>— phil wickham</li></ol>note: jon foreman is just amazing. a lot of the song he's written i've taken as my own, they're my <i>fightsongs</i>. the song "let that be enough" fits perfectly for me also, from the meaning, to "<i>i was born this thursday, 22 years ago</i>."<br> http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/37/july_17_2008 Tue, 15 Jul 2008 22:00:00 -0000 <i>it's my birthday tomorrow, no one here could know. i was born this thursday, twenty-two years ago.</i> in correlation with <a href="http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/37/">july 17, 2008</a> http://amadeusss.multiply.com/music/item/40/song_for_the_moment_no._7 Tue, 15 Jul 2008 16:25:36 -0000 <img src="http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3271/2601228627_0ff79ce13f.jpg?v=0" alt=""> <br><br>i can anticipate the response that is coming: "i know that all God's commands are spiritual, but i'm not. isn't this also your experience?" yes. i'm full of myself—after all, i've spent a long time in sin's prison. what i don't understand about myself is that i decide one way, but then i act another, doing things i absolutely despise. so if i can't be trusted to figure out what is best for myself and then do it, it becomes obvious that God's command is necessary.<br><br>but i need something more! for if i know the law but still can't keep it, and if the power of sin within me keeps sabotaging my best intentions, i obviously need help! i realize that i don't have what it takes. i can will it, but i can't do it. i decide to do good, but i don't really do it; i decide not to do bad, but then i do it anyway. my decisions, such as they are, don't result in actions. something has gone wrong deep within me and gets the better of me every time.<br><br>it happens so regularly that it's predictable. the mom... http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/36/truth_thursday_i_want_to... Sun, 22 Jun 2008 21:46:00 -0000 the hold up is a visual filtration of the culture today. it is selected by a multimedia arts student who likes to surf the world wide web for all sorts of things from arts and design, music, film, fashion and anything related. he picks what he things is worthy of holding http://amadeusss.multiply.com/links/item/1/the_hold_up Wed, 18 Jun 2008 20:36:26 -0000 believe it! taking a break from web management class i notice contruction being done at the room in front of the elevators in the 11th floor of the school of design and arts building. i took a peek and asked what's happening in the area. the guy said "an apple store." an apple store! i'm so excited! they said they were opening the next day!<br><br>i also asked about educational discounts and they have! i also asked if they have the same promo with the u.s. apple store that you get a free ipod for an apple purchase. they said no. maybe in the future!<br><br>i'm so excited! after dismissal i asked if they we're also going to be a service center and they are! this is mad crazy!<br><br>hooray for school of design and arts for being awesome!<br> http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/34/the_apple_store_in_de_la_salle_-_college_of_st._benilde Wed, 11 Jun 2008 14:46:00 -0000 <i>this truth thursday is cut/hidden because i think sometimes being honest hurts.</i><br><br><hr size="1"><br>i want to tie myself on to some strings and catch hold of a flock of birds and fly away. get away from everyone and everything. sometimes it depresses me too much. sometimes i think too much of the lyrics "what are we if we're not in love?" and "what are we if we're not alone?"<br><br><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/hiccoughs/2541649950/"><img src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2148/2541649950_59cf2d7819.jpg?v=0" border="0" height="500" width="500"></a><br><br><i>don't tell anybody anything. if you do, you start missing everybody.</i><br><br><br><br><br>...<br><a href="http://taguan.multiply.com/journal/item/185/"><i>truth thursday</i></a><i>. check it out.</i> http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/32/truth_thursday_my_worries_for_today... Sun, 1 Jun 2008 14:10:00 -0000 <br><a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/hiccoughs/356973814/"><img src="http://farm1.static.flickr.com/126/356973814_be6504d9a5.jpg?v=0" alt="" border="0" height="400" width="300"></a><br><br>i.<br>he's unravelling. fingers extended, palms pressed, arms raised. slowly pieces fall. they crumble. unravelling, pieces fall and with all his might he tries to go on. there's water on his ankles. it's falling like water.<br><br>ii.<br>silly boy. he knows the person that speaks life. he's heard it. he's seen it. he's experienced it. he knows his fingers are no match for those fingers, the same ones that wrote on the ground. those palms that took the weight of the world. those open, open arms.<br><br>boy, why do you dare hold back?<br><br>iii.<br>forgetfulness. disobedience. we are fools aren't we all?<br><br>iv.<br>his arms are raised up, ready to touch the sky.<br><br><br><br><br><br>...<br><a style="font-style: italic; " href="http://taguan.multiply.com/journal/item/180/">truth thursday</a>. check it out. http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/31/truth_thursday_my_body_is_holding_back... Fri, 30 May 2008 11:36:00 -0000 <a href="http://www.flickr.com/photos/hiccoughs/2496968614/"><img src="http://farm3.static.flickr.com/2355/2496968614_c5800272b2.jpg?v=0" border="0" height="338" width="500"></img></a><br><br>my body is holding on to home. the thought of home. the idea of home. the places you've gone and wish to go. which one is which? home is where your heart is... right? what if you don't know where that is?<br><br>my body is holding on to gravity. no matter what i do, i cannot get rid of it. no matter how hard we try free ourselves. the sky will always fall. we will always fall. i will always fall.<br><br>my body is holding on to memories. memories of people, places, events. of past love, of purple mountains, of foolish things. something i think of how the cold wind stings the cheeks, the condensation of air when you breathe out, only being able to see in a three feet radius in thick fog.<br><br>my body is holding on to foolishness. the constant remind of. i know i am nothing on my own.<br><br>my body is holding on to open arms. to the open arms when held you know where your heart is. to open arms that when you fall it holds out to you. to open arms of acceptance, of houses, of circumstances. to open arms that ... http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/30/truth_thursday_my_body_is_holding_on_to... Thu, 15 May 2008 15:59:00 -0000 had the most amazing time in a long while. great cooking and eating with friends and laughing with new ones! stolen from <a href=http://taguan.multiply.com/photos/album/55/The_Steak_Night>tepi's</a>. because i like to http://amadeusss.multiply.com/photos/album/16/the_steak_night Thu, 10 Apr 2008 17:26:19 -0000 it's been a while! here are some various songs i've been playing over and over to various moods for over a month. love. love. http://amadeusss.multiply.com/music/item/35/song_for_the_moment_no._6 Mon, 25 Feb 2008 16:56:00 -0000 if you leave a comment...<br><br>1. i'll respond with something random about you.<br>2. i'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.<br>3. i'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.<br>4. i'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.<br>5. i'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.<br>6. i'll tell you what animal you remind me of.<br>7. i'll ask you something that i've always wondered about you.<br><br style="font-weight: bold;">if i do this for you, you must post this on your blog. http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/29/meme_youyou_wewe Wed, 13 Feb 2008 16:18:00 -0000 it's christmas time, amadeus cobangbang! (maybe not just song for the http://amadeusss.multiply.com/music/item/23/song_for_the_moment_no._5 Sat, 1 Dec 2007 18:54:30 -0000 2 november 2007; off to tagaytay with the juans and ailene! went to sonya's, random side-of-the-road-bulalohan, and t house tagaytay! (why don't we have pictures in t house?) stealing photos has become a trend in amadeus's multiply site. not just any kindof stealing but stealing only photos with amadeus in it. thanks <a href=http://nuriendil.multiply.com/photos/album/90/>neens</a>. once sherie uploads also i shall steal once http://amadeusss.multiply.com/photos/album/15/dia_de_los_muertos Mon, 5 Nov 2007 06:47:28 -0000 25 october 2007; pressured shoot for video production 2. six hours to shoot and edit. i think we did great. just had technical problems in the http://amadeusss.multiply.com/photos/album/14/doomsday_project Thu, 25 Oct 2007 14:56:21 -0000 "something i actually did without e.'s permission. (because i was sure she would say no.) it never did get printed and distributed." really old! i can't remember the date! might get remade and http://amadeusss.multiply.com/photos/album/13/ae_zine Mon, 15 Oct 2007 17:15:16 -0000 so i was suppose to write something about the switchfoot concert. all i can say now is that it's powerful and amazing! i went with "the imus" gang. i got the floor seats and snuck to the mosh area! i ended up being all the way to the front, as in my chest is hitting the stage! i was right in front of jon foreman!<br><br>ailene said something i absolutely agree: they speak a language i understand. switchfoot writes songs that i can relate to; sessions and parts in of my life that fits perfectly with certain songs. being there live, watching and singing along to every song just made it more grand.<br><br>the concert line-up:&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;1.&nbsp;&nbsp;oh! gravity.2.&nbsp;&nbsp;stars3.&nbsp;&nbsp;dare you to move4.&nbsp;&nbsp;american dream5.&nbsp;&nbsp;this is your life6.&nbsp;&nbsp;learning to breathe7.&nbsp;&nbsp;chem 6a8.&nbsp;&nbsp;more than fine9.&nbsp;&nbsp;gone10.&nbsp;&nbsp;the cowboy song11.&nbsp;&nbsp;on fire12.&nbsp;&nbsp;awakening13.&nbsp;&nbsp;meant to live14.&nbs... http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/28/in_this_life_Youre_the_once_place_i_call_home Mon, 8 Oct 2007 09:53:00 -0000 "goodmorning," i said.<br>"goodnight," she said.<br><br>i love it when this happens.<br>it's like time travelling and<br>digging holes to reach china.<br><br>i love you, i love you.<br><br><br><br><br>...<br>"the world is amazing that way." she said.<br>"the world is <i>amazing</i> my friend." http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/27/the_world_is_amazing_my_friend. Tue, 25 Sep 2007 16:45:00 -0000 i heard house of heroes over at <a href=http://down2rok.multiply.com/>chris's</a> and i just love how the song starts! someone needs to send me the whole album! anyone? pelle carlberg; and peter bjorn and john featuring victoria bergsman! greetings from sweden! happy songs! http://amadeusss.multiply.com/music/item/19/song_for_the_moment_no._4 Sun, 23 Sep 2007 17:00:47 -0000 first of all: switchfoot in manila! ofcourse i'd be on the list. big hangover from the whole experience! mute math was introduced to me by <a href=http://benjomarquez.multiply.com/>benjo</a>! catchy music! they sung the transformers theme song for the movie. (no comment on that though.) "noticed" caught my attention and the lyrics are great. "awakening" and "noticed" also seemed to fit for me. "let your love be strong". this song, i wish switchfoot sung it at the concert. it's just an amazing song. "<i>let Your love be strong and i don't care what goes down...</i>" my longing heart finds it's true http://amadeusss.multiply.com/music/item/11/song_for_the_moment_no._3 Sat, 15 Sep 2007 16:07:09 -0000 i heard this while watching the last episode of kyle xy before it's season break. they played it in the ending and i searched high and low of the internet world to find this song! took a while http://amadeusss.multiply.com/music/item/9/song_for_the_moment_no._2 Thu, 6 Sep 2007 20:22:01 -0000 i've always love getting things in the mail. <i>balikbayan</i> boxes, small packages, envelopes with bubble-wrap lining, letters, postcards. i think what i love about it the most is the idea of things travelling.<br><br>i finally got my <a href="http://www.amazon.com/TNIV-Thinline-Bible-Zondervan/dp/0310922747/ref=pd_bbs_sr_1/002-4251018-9000869?ie=UTF8&amp;s=books&amp;qid=1185990869&amp;sr=8-1">bible</a> from amazon.com via my auntie. this is a replacement to the one i accidentally left in a shopping cart at the grocery store. i've called the place if anyone returned it and followed up on it for months but it's long gone. i just wondered who would steal a bible? (although, my bible does have a cool exterior.) i also got a plain pocket moleskine. both were way cheaper to buy in the u.s.! i had to buy it online because no more stocks at the local bookstores.<br><br><a href="http://deathbycoke.multiply.com/">le godsister</a> reminded me of a specific high school memory: phone calls. moreover, long evening calls with girls. to be honest though this is the closest thing i got to a boy-girl thing. (because i honestly didn't want to be in a relationship.) they were nevertheless long... oh my!<br><br><a href="http://angelf.multiply.com/">angel's</a> sweden party! i w... http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/26/random_things_past_midnight Wed, 1 Aug 2007 17:00:00 -0000 walking, stumbling on these shadowfeet; toward home, a land that i've never seen. i am changing; less and less asleep. made of different stuff than when i began and i have sensed it all along; fast approaching is the day. ... in correspondence with <a href="http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/25">a song for july seventeen</a>. http://amadeusss.multiply.com/music/item/7/song_for_the_moment_no._1 Sat, 21 Jul 2007 00:40:20 -0000 walking, stumbling on these shadowfeet; toward home, a land that i've never seen. i am changing; less and less asleep. made of different stuff than when i began and i have sensed it all along; fast approaching is the day.<br><br>when the world has fallen out from under me, i'll be found in You, still standing. when the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees, when time and space are through, i'll be found in You.<br><br>there's distraction buzzing in my head saying in the shadows it's easier to stay, but i've heard rumours of true reality, whispers of a well-lit way.<br><br>when the world has fallen out from under me, i'll be found in You, still standing. when the sky rolls up and mountains fall on their knees, when time and space are through, i'll be found in You.<br><br>You make all things new... You make all things new... You make all things new... You make all things... You make all things...<br><br>when the world has fallen out from under me, i'll be found in You, still standing. when the sky ... http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/25/a_song_for_july_seventeen Fri, 20 Jul 2007 04:00:00 -0000 so i've been tagged. actually a while back. i've just been, honestly, lazy. this is from <a href="http://taguan.multiply.com/">tepi</a> and <a href="http://nuriendil.multiply.com/">neens</a>.<br><br> random things:1.&nbsp;i have a small-bump-thing at the back of my ears. my mom and brother sam also have them.2.&nbsp;my first favorite animal were zebras.3.&nbsp;i wanted to be a zookeeper when i was a kid so i can take care of zebras.4.&nbsp;my favorite animals now are tigers and elephants.5.&nbsp;i like spelling aeroplane, oliphaunts and outmanoeuvred.<br>6.&nbsp;lately i've been liking my eggs poached and runny. (i usually prefer scrambled.)7.&nbsp;i've been to twenty-eight states out of fifty. twenty-six of them in three weeks. in a van.<br>&nbsp;happy thoughts:1.&nbsp;the juan sisters: tepi, neenja and sheri. ofcourse <i>juan</i>derboymarti also.2.&nbsp;ailene ponce, le godsister. i've known her since i can remember. bowl-esque haircuts and all.3.&nbsp;jonathan crisman, mon éléfant. we will travel the world one day.4.&nbsp;nadja lumbang de ala. the cobangbang-lumbang connection. oh... http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/24/tagged. Thu, 21 Jun 2007 17:20:00 -0000 15 june 2007; eastwood. with <a href=http://taguan.multiply.com/>tepi</a>, <a href=http://littlephotographer.multiply.com/>sheri</a>, <a href=http://spoonmachine.multiply.com/>jorem</a>! for those who haven't heard <a href=http://juliannetarroja.multiply.com/>julianne</a> live, it's a whole different from the album. neo soul love.<blockquote>i'm stronger than before stronger than i'll ever be and i raise my eyes to the one, the one who made me see. all what i thought was lost but now is found and i'm grateful. grateful for the day you called my name.<br></blockquote> http://amadeusss.multiply.com/photos/album/11/julianne_ablum_launch Fri, 15 Jun 2007 19:29:21 -0000 past midnight i walked down a gated village looking up an almost starless sky forgetting whether it was saturn or jupiter that can be seen this time of year and if it was the same one i was looking at. (it was jupiter.) past midnight i rode a seesaw and wished it was higher. i missed the feeling of going to playgrounds and passing the time away. past midnight i rode the swings and i wish i knew that they were secure and that i can swing as hard as i can. i also wanted to jump but the guts i use to have as a kid have now seem to have disappeared altogether. (maybe this is growing up?) past midnight on the drive home we watched a crescent moon dimmed in a dark shade of orange hanging low in the sky. a girl was swooned to the point of tears.<br><br><br><br><br>...<br>something i wrote in another journal.<br><br>i miss playgrounds and how children can quickly become friends with each other and seem to share the world at that little time spent together and later never to see each other again and be okay with it.<br><br>seesaws r... http://amadeusss.multiply.com/journal/item/23/past_midnight Fri, 11 May 2007 20:29:00 -0000